WOW [14 Feb 2006|09:02am] [ mood | loved ] I went and saw Sigur Ros last night in Columbus for free. By free, I mean a kid in my photo class has a friend who manufactures all access passes at kinko's that really work. I really think I got the good end of the deal. Didn't have to drive, didn't have to pay anything, and get to see a badass band. Words cannot describe how amazing they are. Yeah, most of you probably haven't heard of them, and yeah, all their lyrics are in Icelandic, but that just makes me cooler than you. Haha, not really. Seriously though, it was incredible. I had goosebumps for like 90% of the show and nearly cried several times. I know, that makes me way emo, which isn't cool. It was just so overwhelming and beautiful. I recommend that everyone go see them at least once in their life. Or at least burn a copy of one of their cds, turn it up pretty loud in your car and pretend that you're in an arena. I haven't yet opened my present, so I'm sure I'll probably want to talk about that later. You know, kinda counteract the anti-Valentines' vibe everyone else seems to have. 3 flew with me..

Soul. Mate. [11 Dec 2005|05:39pm] [ mood | hungry ] Seriously. As if it wasn't enough that his lyrics constantly define my life. He's gorgeous. Look up pictures of Sufjan Stevens. I'm going to marry him. "And I heard from the trees a great parade. And I heard from the hills a band was made. And will I be invited to the sound? And will I be a part of what you've made? And I am throwing all my thoughts away. And I'm destroying every bet I've made. And I am joining all my thoughts to you. And I'm preparing every part for you" with me..

Awww... [08 Dec 2005|12:20am] [ mood | touched ] I'm supposed to tell everyone that Fuckbag (Sam) says hi. He called to tell me he misses me. It's so crazy. I was so worried for him that he wouldn't get any work or anything over there.. and here he is telling me about the magazine covers that he's on, the free clothes he gets, and his jobs (he has an album coming out and a few movies). Just... crazy. I do miss him though. Funny that a year ago around this time I was spending every day with him and staying the night at his house and whatnot. What's even funnier is that I used to drive his ass to work when his car finally died for good and now he's joking about sending me some of the free stuff he's getting as my Christmas present. Hopefully he'll get enough time off from shooting the movie in NY to come visit. I miss him lots. Aw. 1 flew with me..

Haha! [03 Dec 2005|10:09pm] [ mood | amused ] I saw like twenty vehicles involved in some type of crash or other weather related incident causing them to be off of the road on my way home. What can I say.. I've always been ahead of my time... ;) 3 flew with me..

I feel so smart [08 Nov 2005|10:50pm] [ mood | pleased ] This time of year, election day, always makes me feel intelligent. Okay, so I've only voted a few times now, but still.. I knew what I was voting for. With the exception of the county commissioner and school board people, but they didn't have anyone running against them. Then I went to school with my ubercool "I voted today" sticker and ended up having a whole conversation about the issues for the state of Ohio with my painting professor. Again, I felt smart. For all of you that could have voted but didn't.. you suck and I hope I never hear you say one word about the government because I'll yell at you. 2 flew with me..

Humor [15 Oct 2005|10:49pm] What a great day to decide that I want to be single now. Haha, I rock. with me..

[24 Jan 2005|10:20pm] [ mood | calm ] 1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? Showed off my cleavage on film. 2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next? Never do, but I was pretty happy with myself regardless. They WERE to not drink pop, drink more water, and take better care of my skin. Oh well, it was a valiant effort for a few weeks. 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Nope. 4. Did anyone close to you die? Mr. Shaw, Barney Woolery, Aunt Ann 5. What countries did you visit? Haven't left the US in years 6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? Balls (figuratively speaking) 7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory? Valentine's Day, my birthday, Wertzstock 8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Finally doing things for myself and not other people, being able to draw expressively 9. What was your biggest failure? Don't have any regrets 10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Acid Reflux for a while 11. What was the best thing you bought? Spray-on Tan, Pete Yorn cd for $3, Peacock vintage earrings at the Valley 12. Whose behavior merited celebration? All of my friends have been awesome to me. Can't get any better than that 13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed? My former best friend 14. Where did most of your money go? gas, food, rock shows 15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Wertzstock, again the movie thing 16. What song will always remind you of 2004? "Anyway", mind is blank right now 17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? happier b) thinner or fatter? probably thinner c) richer or poorer? richer 18. What do you wish you'd done more of? gone out, visited more people, love 19. What do you wish you'd done less of? procrastinate, critically examining things 20. How did you spend Christmas? Talking to James, lots of family junk 22. Did you fall in love in 2004? Just once. What can I say, I miss having an adult relationship. 23. How many one-night stands? No comment. 24. What was your favorite TV program? Law and Order, 80s/90s shows, Shorties watching shorties 25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Don't think so 26. What was the best book you read? My Women in Art history book 27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Damien Rice, 80s New wave, ABBA, Pixies, Miles, Dave Hamilton, DANIEL ERB, huge list of others.. 28. What did you want and get? A "nice guy" for a boyfriend, a chance at a model (wasn't worth it) 29. What did you want and not get? Johnny Depp 30. What was your favorite film of this year? Napoleon, Closer 31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? Worked at the hardware store, had a rose brought to me and got taken to lunch, got a really pretty ring, went out to dinner with Bryan and my family and ate French Onion soup and Prime Rib, hung out with Bryan afterward 32. What one thing has made your year immeasurably more satisfying than last? All of the friendships I've made 33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? Sandals, bright colored thrift store shirts, jeans, big earrings 34. What kept you sane? Art, junk food, long phone conversations, Laurie 35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Johnny, Brad Pitt, Howie Day 36. What political issue stirred you the most? All of the election related junk 37. Who did you miss? Depends on what part of the year you're referring to 38. Who was the best new person you met? The girls (James included) 39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004: Always do what makes you happy. 40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "'Cause no one likes it eloquently" with me..

What can I say.. He wants to fuck me like an animal... [24 Jan 2005|10:08pm] [ mood | amused ] Your Husband Generator by Lady_Galadriel Name Your Husband Is You Met in an underwear shop You Have 5 children You Live germany In an expensive studio flat You And Your Partner Are Best Known For naming your children/pets the most ridiculous names EVER Quiz created with MemeGen! with me..

Deep in thought. [18 Jan 2005|03:43am] [ mood | restless ] I really should be in bed right now. But noo.. I think too much. 3 flew with me..

Time to kill [16 Jan 2005|08:48pm] Yeah, so I'm waiting to hear what tonight's plans entail, so I might as well write in this thing.. The life's been pretty uneventful these days. Been going out with a bunch of guys a lot, which sounds exciting, but not really. Gotta love listening to your friends checking out girls... Oh well. I'm temporarily giving up on that aspect of my life. I figure there's no use in having to settle for something that doesn't make me happy. Actually, my life's been different lately. I don't go out to many concerts/shows anymore. Haven't really hung out with the girls lately, but have been meaning to. Just sort of disconnected feeling I guess. It's around the time for me to be uneasy about scholarship stuff/ art schools too. I know I'm just scared and need to bite the bullet and get it over with, but oh well. It's still hard. Ah! Just realized I need to leave like.. right now. More later. :) with me..

Fun times [10 Jan 2005|06:58pm] [ mood | sick ] Last night was kinda out of control.. Not going to go into too much detail. Went out with Sam, Ben, and Tom Green. Played a lot of darts. Came to the conclusion that I suck 50% of the time, and I'm really good the rest of the time. I'd either not get any on the board, or hit triples. Finally heard the rap song with bedspring noises in it that I've been hearing about for the past week and a half. The guys refused to let me buy anything, so I felt special. I'm sure I looked like a whore, and I kind of sound like one now that I'm reading this. I dunno, I guess I've always gotten along better with guys. They have less drama, and tend to have more fun. I don't think the whole ladder theory that Andy told me about ages ago (http://www.intellectualwhores.com/masterladder.html) applies to me. For those of you that want an abbreviated explanation, it states that guys have a ladder of how much they want to bang a girl, yes they have friends that are girls, but those girls are still on the ladder (they to some degree want to bang them). Girls, on the other hand have two ladders, a friend ladder and a bang ladder. It's funny, check it out. Anyway, I still believe that I have guy friends that don't want to bang me, regardless of what Rob Reiner films or the aforementioned site state. I forget where I was going with that, but I'll probably post it anyway. I'm planning on going and working out tonight. Still working on getting rid of all the crap I did to myself during the holidays like triple servings of mashed potatoes and eating five different desserts. I don't even want to lost a lot of weight or anything, I just want to be in shape like I used to, where I could go down three flights of stairs, run to my car and back up to the drawing lab carrying all of my supplies without breaking a sweat. The air show was awesome for that. I was in the best shape of my life just by doing my job. I'm kind of confused with what I want relationship-wise these days. Part of me wants a relationship, but I like the going out all the time with my friends and not having to feel guilty for talking to new people. Hmm.. maybe I just need to find a guy that doesn't have jealousy issues? Well, I'm going to go lift some weights here so that I can focus gym time to running and swimming. :) 2 flew with me..

[10 Jan 2005|06:38pm] 1. 5 colors that you like the most: aquamarine blue, sap green, brown, deep red, sky blue 2. what do you treasure in your wallet? frequent shopper card to Gem City, the little things I keep to remember things 3. pierced on? ears ;) 4. person you always want to spend time with? either my guy friends or the girls 5. you're wearing what today? old aero shirt, jeans, sneaks, my "l" hat (i'm recovering) 6.? 7. names of your exes? eddie, bryan, spence, dan, joe 8. fruits you usually crave? pineapples and oranges 9. veggies that you don't eat? uncooked tomatoes, onions, broccoli 10. your last drink was: big glass of milk 11. hangouts: jamie's dorm room/house, bimini's (past), random steak n shake's, sam's, fitworks, wherever everybody is really 13. your wish for your next bday: love and continued happiness 14. What's on your bedside table? phone (at night), shoebox full of jewelry, clock, water 15. What's the geekiest part of your music collection? the fact that i have 5 madonna cds, and a george michael cassette 16. What do you eat/drink when you raid your fridge at night? sweet tea, pizza rolls, lunch meat without bread, orange juice 17. What is your secret guaranteed weeping film? shakespeare in love, affair to remember, bridges of madison county 18. Do you have a completely irrational fear? i always think that someone's in my house 19. Do you ever have to beg? nope, i usually give up before i hit that point 20. Who should play you in a movie about your life? natalie portman 21. What do you miss most about being little? yeah.. i'm five foot tall, and i still act like a kid a lot of times. 22. Are you happy with your given name? yep, especially my middle name 23. Have you ever been in a school play? i was ducky lucky once, and the lead female role in "achoo, the mouse that stole Christmas" in second grade. ;) 24. Have you ever been in love? i'm a hopeless romantic 25. Do you like yourself and believe in yourself? sure do 26. Do you think you're cute? yeah 27. Do you consider yourself a nice person? not gonna lie, i can come across as a bitch from time to time, but i have the best intentions, and i'm genuinely nice most of the time with me..

Mm.. Garden State [08 Jan 2005|10:01pm] [ mood | touched ] Yes, I finally watched the movie everyone has been telling me to see, okay, it was mostly my own motivation. But anyways, I loved it. The soundtrack is as good as it was promised to be. Finally found out who did the remake of "Such Great Heights" that they play on FlyerRadio. Score. Here are the lyrics to my new favorite song. Falling in love with songs after hearing them in Natalie Portman movies needs to stop. let go- frou frou drink up, baby down mmm, are you in or are you out leave your things behind 'cause it's all going off without you excuse me, too busy you're writing your tragedy these mishaps you bubble wrap when you've no idea what you're like so let go, jump in oh well, whatcha waiting for it's alright 'cause there's beauty in the breakdown so let go, just get in oh, it's so amazing here it's alright 'cause there's beauty in the breakdown it gains the more it gives and then it rises with the fall so hand me that remote can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow such boundless pleasure we've no time for later now you can't await your own arrival you've 20 seconds to comply so let go, jump in oh well, whatcha waiting for it's alright 'cause there's beauty in the breakdown so let go, just get in oh, it's so amazing here it's alright 'cause there's beauty in the breakdown 1 flew with me..

My bad.. [08 Jan 2005|09:21pm] [ mood | geeky ] Just for the record, my New Year's kiss this year was Jamie Fucking Fannin. I love her. She is the best friend ever. When I have children one day, I hope they're all like her, but with different names and probably some variation in appearance from one another. How's that? lol 1 flew with me..

Update [08 Jan 2005|11:36am] [ mood | cheerful ] It's been a while.. Days leading up to New Year's- Out of control. No sleep. Bad behavior on everyone's part. Lots of fun though. New Year's Eve- Pretty cool, but uneventful. I love my sparkly shirt in all of it's mirror-ball glory. Fell asleep at Smurf's while everyone else partied. I know what you're thinking.. Party Animal. New Year's Day- Sucky. Not gonna lie. Never felt so outta place or ignored in all my life. Picture a movie about ghosts where the ghosts don't know they're dead and can't figure out why people keep running into them and aren't speaking. Except, with me as the said ghost. lol Past couple days between New Year's and now- Not too shabby. Patched things up with the guy I hurt before NYE, so we're back to being good friends. Went and watched emo bands with Jamie and some kids. Matt pretty much hooked me up with a job. Not going to jump to any conclusions or anything, but I "came highly recommended" and have to go in tomorrow to meet with the manager. We shall see. I'm having weird spurts of good luck these days. Made several resolutions so far. I think I make several so I can at least keep one by the end of the year. Haha. I'm taking a different approach though. I read in some magazine or somewhere online that it's better to start gradually and not expect to cut all bad habits cold turkey. I'm still not drinking pop at all, but with everything else, I'm gradually getting into. Drinking more water, exercising regularly, eating better, devoting more time to school stuff, etc. Hopefully I'll stick to it. Just for the record, all of my stuff is clean and organized and I've went over a week without pop. 7 flew with me..

Mmm.. party [30 Dec 2004|05:53pm] [ mood | mischievous ] Today I met up with Matt and bought my books at SCC. Not too bad, my online course only required one vhs, and my only other book was a photography book. The supplies for color photo are going to kick my ass though.. I was pretty pissed though, I was all looking forward to having Sinclair pizza for lunch. I used to eat the chicken garlic pizza all the time before I started saving money and eating at home. Everything was basically closed though, so all I got was a mountain dew. Matt's a pretty cool kid though, it's too bad that he doesn't have classes on Mondays and Wednesdays. My social life while at school sucks. I skipped out on going to practice with Sam. Last time I went to a band practice was back when I dated Bryan and it wasn't too exciing. I was entertained, but only because I was taking pictures. lol. Anyway, this way I figured I could get some stuff done before tonight. Going to some party with Sam and Tanner and all those guys somewhere in Springfield. I'm excited. I got a message from Wes today about New Year's Eve. Turns out that there will be a party at Smurf's after all. Smurf, I love you if you ever read this thing. I can't wait 'til New Year's this year. No boyfriend this year and I'll get to hang out with all of my favorite people. Plus, Mer (I'm seriously going to start calling you that) convinced me to buy this sparkly top. One word to describe it.. LOUD. The entire front of it is covered in one inch turquoise sequins. I know that part of my Christmas present from my secret Santa just happens to be earrings that match it too. :D I saw a swan sitting on the side of I-75 today on my way home. I think it's a sign.. hehe. Seriously, can't remember being in a better mood. Well, I'm gonna go do laundry and make myself prettiful. Jamie, I'm having a hot day. lol 2 flew with me..

Wow.. [21 Dec 2004|02:20am] [ mood | hopeful ] Yeah, so I think I did something bad, something really bad. :-\ I actually let someone know how I REALLY feel about them.. *gasp*. I don't think it's too bad, since it IS me being honest. I guess I still have that little voice in the back of my head telling me that I made an ass of myself. (Yes, I have ADD AND voices in my head.. :P) Who knows, we'll see what happens tomorrow.. I went to the UD game tonight with my Dad. They played Northwestern State or something like that. I love going to UD basketball games. Probably 'cause I've been going there as long as I can remember. I guess it's one of those nice constants that remains even though I'm constantly changing and getting older. It was a good game. I expect big things from UD since it's basically a Freshman team and they're already pretty decent. I guess I smoothed things over with my parents by going too. I swear they think I'm a horrible kid and do all of these bad things. I think when I go out and do stuff with my dad like seeing games it gives me a chance to tell him about my life, and it gives him a chance to give me fatherly advice. Yeah.. my dad thinks I should date Ward, since "his dad's a nice guy." Haha! I about cried on the way home. He asked me out of nowhere if I thought he was a good dad. Isn't it funny how the older you get, the more you appreciate your parents and who they are as people? Thanks to you people I'm now getting hooked on the myspace.com thing. I must admit it's cool to have strangers find me interesting. Hehe. Plus, I've gotten back in contact with people I haven't talked to in months. Very cool. I think I might use it for networking with art junk as well. Gah, I'd like to apologize to all of you whom have been bugged and questioned and whatnot the past few days by a certain kid named Eddie. He doesn't seem to understand the meaning of "LEAVE MY FRIENDS ALONE!" Hehe. So, a million times, I apologize. I need to finish up my Christmas shopping either tomorrow or Wednesday for my parents. Girls, are we officially doing our Christmas junk on New Year's Eve? It doesn't feel like Christmas yet. Maybe I need to listen to some more holiday music. I'm hooked on "Baby, It's Cold Outside" at the moment. Napoleon Dynamite comes out on DVD tomorrow. I'm excited. :D 3 flew with me..

This is ourselves under pressure [19 Dec 2004|02:12am] [ mood | frustrated ] Sometimes I think my thoughts are too big and too expansive to be contained in my head. I went and saw "Closer" with Carrie Lynne and Em at Fairfield. I expected a nice, predictable love story, but ended up getting more. That movie.. I dunno.. I guess it just got to me. I left feeling emotionally numb and emotionally alive at the same time. Perhaps it is just because it sort of related to a relationship I once had. Who knows. I should be happy because it made me feel, and that's what I truly love about film- you can be made to feel something without having to actually experience it yourself. Ugh. I hate being.. like me and having to have emotions. Ugh. Not that it'd be any better to be emotionless, but still.. So, I've been sitting here with Damien Rice- Blower's Daughter on repeat. (Thanks, Em). It's a beautiful song... And so it is Just like you said it would be Life goes easy on me Most of the time And so it is The shorter story No love, no glory No hero in her sky I can't take my eyes off of you I can't take my eyes... And so it is Just like you said it should be We'll both forget the breeze Most of the time And so it is The colder water The blower's daughter The pupil in denial I can't take my eyes off of you I can't take my eyes... Did I say that I loathe you? Did I say that I want to Leave it all behind? I can't take my mind off of you I can't take my mind... My mind...my mind... 'Til I find somebody new Until I can find the strength and the words to write about what I'm feeling, that's it for now. 3 flew with me..

Time goes by fast.. [15 Dec 2004|05:46pm] [ mood | complacent ] It wasn't until I looked at a calendar today that I realized that there's only a little over a week left before Christmas. That's crazy. I'm still pretty bummed out about Christmas this year. I guess I'm just a sucker for tradition and it's going to suck not having all of my family here for Christmas. I've decided I need to stop talking online so late. My conversations turn bad at around 2:30 each night. Hehe. On a not so different note, I had a guy tell me today that I was on his "call when I don't have strings for sex list". Nice, I know. I either get that or a "I could never think of you like that, you're like a sister to me, etc". Ugh. I think I'm going to go to WOs for New Years. I mean, it's either that, going to Cleveland with Dee, or Canal St. Right now hanging out with my girls sounds like more fun though. I just heard the theme song to the Simpsons, so that's my cue to go watch that. I'll write more later.. with me..

[15 Dec 2004|03:52am] And I feel so much depends on the weather So is it raining in your bedroom? And I see that these are the eyes of disarray Would you even care? 1 flew with me..

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